I went into my RE today for my baseline ultrasound to see if my body was suppressed enough by the Lupron so we could start our FET cycle... After 4 years and 4+ IVF cycles, I've been getting pretty good at looking at my ovaries on a sonogram screen. As soon as my right ovary came into view and focus, I knew right away that our FET would be on hold.
My body just didn''t want to listen to the Lupron this month and it decided to grow its own follicle... grrr. 1 follicle, 15mm, E2 = 102. And today is CD5 after my birth control period. Oh, and a bunch of antral follicles to boot. So I have to stay on Lupron for a week and go back in to see if it has shrunk. But my hunch is that it won't (ie, it's a "functional cyst") and we'll have to be sidelined for one more month.
But I'm not really that upset. I guess maybe because I've been through this so many times (not the growing follicle thing, but just cycling in general) that what's one more month, right? And part of me thinks that maybe, just maybe, this is the universe's way of saying, hold on girlie... your brother is getting married out of town in early December and there's no way we want you to be late in your third trimester during his wedding, especially since it involves an airplane ride and such. So we'd better make you wait another month or so... Gee, thanks universe... really... thanks... because, um, we could have just done this a few months ago instead when I did my IVF clinical trial and already HAD the baby by his wedding....but NO...
I digress.
So here we stand, in Lupron Limbo for another week, and most likely another month...
Oh, and a strange side note for those of you who believe that our bodies should be and used to be more in tune with nature. The 'functional cyst' thing that happens to many of us in an IVF cycle when they are trying to suppress us with luteal phase lupron, occurs MUCH more frequently during the spring (per my RE).... hmmmm..... Spring = Fertile time of the year?????
I think it just goes to show you that no matter how much we try to and think we can control the human body, there are other forces out there at work laughing at our futile attempts.
12 comments:
Sorry to hear that your FET is delayed due to a cyst. FX that it will shrink by the time of your next u/s. Good luck!!!
That's interesting observation about cysts and spring time, I have one too, and am in the middle of my stims, FX it will stay the same size and would not interfere.
Waiting waiting waiting....we get pretty good at that huh? Hoping that Lil bugger leaves you soon, but if not, May will be OUR month!!!
I'm so sorry. :(
bummer you have to wait another month:(
you seem to have reframed it to a positive though:) There are some things (especially IVF) that we can not control. That is a big issue that I have learned in my ttc journey.
Awww DARN IT!! WTH?! I'm glad you are feeling okay about it. I will be thinking of you and hoping it goes away asap!! Fingers crossed!
Ugh. :( You've heard the phrase "We plan, God laughs," right?
So sorry about that dang cyst, girl. And SO interesting about this happening in the spring a lot! Perhaps a week longer on Lupron will resolve it.
How frustrating, I'm sorry. Hopefully a week will do the trick.
I've been thinking of spring, and the year of the rabbit, watching birds do their spring flings and hoping my body will join in the fertility of the season this year.
Damn it! Sorry for the delay, I hope it isn't a long one.
I'd like to think that their are times of the year when we are more fertile than others. It's pretty amazing that despite our attempts to drug our bodies into submission things like this happen.
I tried to comment earlier on my i-phone, but I couldn't figure it out. D@mn technology. Anyway, I am so sorry if this FET gets pushed off. I HATE waiting. But, maybe the universe is looking out for you...let's hope for that. You could call the baby June....:>
Coincidentally, my bro is getting married in December too.
I am sorry you have to play the waiting game...a week or a month...whatever, but I want it to work for you....
So bummed to hear about the delay, but like you said, maybe the Universe is lining everything up perfectly for you! You sure deserve it!
Gah! You're like me, your body always knows what is supposed to happen normally and what is rare, and it takes the rare road. "Oh, I'm not supposed to do that? Then I will, so take that!"
Very interesting about the spring thing. I wonder if it has anything to do with all of the animals getting it on and making babies. Kind of like how women living in close proximity for extended periods of time will end up on the same cycle. Maybe there is just an abundance of those pheromones in the air in the spring, so every living thing jumps on the fertile wagon.
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