Saturday, July 7, 2012

Full Circle

We took our babies yesterday to the fertility clinic where they were conceived to show them off. It was much more emotional than I thought it would be. I always felt close to my RE and when I saw her again for the first time since our 7 week ultrasound way back in early November, we hugged and I let out a few tears of joy and relief. 

I don't think it solidly hit me until we entered the clinic again with babies in our arms that we have finally achieved our dream... we have our take home babies. And this group of doctors, nurses and staff played such a monumental role in helping us see that dream come true. With out them, M&M and the Bean Burrito would not be a part of our lives.

I emailed them after we left and told them all that although our road to these beautiful babies was long and bumpy, I honestly would not have traded a single second of it for these two. M&M and the Bean Burrito are most definitely the babies that we were meant to have. 

Each time I look at them, I get a deep feeling of love and pain. It's very very striking how these two emotions fit so well together. I finally understand the statement of "I love you so much it hurts". Truly... I love them so much that my heart breaks ever time I stare at their eyes, or put their sweet faces up to mine to feel their soft skin, or hold them to my chest as they curl up and nuzzle in, or nourish them with my own body and hear them drink away at my breast. 

I am truly and utterly in love.

I am also eternally grateful to our doctors for their skill and support for all of these years. It will be strange to not really be in contact with the wonderful people in our clinic who helped us finally achieve our dream. 

Yesterday we say our journey come full circle and although it is cliche, while one door closed a whole new world has opened.

4 comments:

KC said...

What a perfect post! I feel completely the same way. I appreciate every second with my guys and they bring me to tears just looking in their eyes. Life is good!
Congrats to you and your babies, so very happy for you!

lisabttc said...

That is soooo wonderful!! Love this post! Thinking of you guys xo

Melissa said...

Isn't it such a strange thing to take your little miracle(s) to the fertility clinic? I remember all those appointments when I would see other couples bringing their newborns in and think "one day, that will be us... I hope." Anyway, when it finally happened, it was so surreal. Congrats!

Ted and Maria said...

Dude...totally tearing up here. I can imagine what that sense of completion felt like....so friggin' amazing. AND I totally get the "I love you so much it hurts" thing, too.